in limbo

so, I'll be updating this for a little bit as I find a new webhost which I need to do by July 1. I think I already know which service I want to go with, but I'm not going to say it's definite so that I can carry on my procrastination and not work on a layout or anything of that nature.

I think God is telling me to take a break.

2 days after writing my last post, I woke up sick thinking it was from me drinking more liquor than I should of when I went out. I prayed to God to let me stop throwing up. I woke up Sunday feeling better. I even decided to test out commitment by buying a cellphone. I'm in a two year relationship... ooooo... and it's a good thing i got insurance in this relationship because within less than a month, my cellphone got ran over by a car. so i'm on phone 2 in 22 days. It's a cool phone though.. I have an LG env 2. I'm really diggin' it. That's weird for me to say since I used to be so anti-cellphone.. but it has proved convenient.

Anyhoo, I woke up the Monday and the throwing up was back. I can't explain the pain I had in my lower right belly.. I knew it wasn't normal... I finally broke down and went to the hospital.. I have diabetes yall. I never knew how much diabetes affects until I had to go through this diabetes info time while in the hospital.. so many freaking signs that I never knew. like my dry skin and feeling like the water was never hot enough and i did notice that where I used to be hot all the time, I was always feeling like it was drafty. I sat in the hospital for 6 days before being released.

Needless to say I've changed my diet and am on medicines which seem to take away my brain power but I guess that's good. I always say I overthink.. I was kind of upset. I grew out of my asthma and am taking on a new disease. It was weird though, when I couldn't keep anything down I was like I wish I was having an asthma attack, at least I would know what to do, or how to lay, or how I could relax myself. I'm telling yall, I am blessed.. more than once in my life I've had someone say they can't believe I'm alive. My doctor at the hospital said that if i didn't come in when I did, it could of attacked my kidneys.. I'm telling you, God must of kicked that pain in for that very reason because hello, this chick does NOT have insurance and if the pain wasn't getting me the way it was, I would NOT of went when I did.

So, yeah, I'm a diabetic. I mostly cut out sugars/low carbs and in 3 weeks I've lost 7 pounds. I keep trying to explain to people that's not the goal.. My diet is for lowering my sugar levels. then why did I mention it? Because it's amazing to me that cutting out mostly sugars I unintentionally lost weight..

well, that's all for now.

and for folks talking about email *cough*FENNIX*cough* I forgot my password so all my contacts and all that are lost with it.. i had some ridiculous clue for the hint thinking I was clever, but i proved too clever for my dang self.. so, i'm glad some of yall are hiding here... i'll definitely get in touch

but now.. i must walk the moo moo!